Does growing up mean having to keep quiet and accept everything in order to be accepted as well?
Some of the things hurt a lot actually and yet I had to pretend that they didn't. Just so I would not become a nuisance and that I would still be seen as the same person you all knew. I hate to hear words like "You've changed" though I know that yes we all change as time passes by.
Who really changed? We tend to use growing up as an excuse for all the changes in us. Whether or not they are good or bad.

I don't know why but it always seems like I am the one at fault whenever similar things happen. I really hate to explain myself because I always feel that explanations are used when we don't believe in each other. People who are not good with words or expressing themselves tend to be the ones at the losing end. I don't mean that kind of lost in competitions but hmmm if you get what I mean.

What happened to that kind of understanding we all used to have in the past? Now I feel like I don't know anyone at all.
Then again, is keeping quiet really a good thing? I think its a form of running away and I think we are all guilty of it.
Keeping quiet doesn't solve anything, but I agree that it is indeed a good way to avoid trouble.

I had a really bad dream last night. Once again it reflected the things that I fear in reality. Nonono they cannot happen.
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Just finished watching Departure, a Japanese movie, and I can't stop crying.
Its a movie about death and the job of a mortician. To many its not a profession to be proud of, because its a taboo to talk about death and also many may think that its a 'dirty job'. In fact after watching this I feel that its a profession that we should respect and words can never express that kind of gratitude that the family members of the deceased can feel. To be able to send their loved ones off in the most beautiful manner, and to do something simple yet meaningful for someone they don't exactly know.


Life.